A middle aged woman was walking down tenth avenue watching her reflection in the glass skyscraper windows as her short skirt was sweeping up with the wind. She took pleasure in peoples reactions as they noticed that she wasn’t wearing underwear. I thought about photographing her, but I was too scared that the other pedestrians would think im a creep. A block away, she walked over a man who was stabbing a needle into the raw flesh of his leg as he struggled to find a vein. His blood was dripping onto the hot concrete and pooling next to another mans head that laid next to him unconscious. I asked him if I could make a picture of the needle piercing his skin. He said “No because you asked me. You should’ve just done it, you’ve now ruined the moment. Its better to ask for forgiveness than it is to ask for permission.”
Earlier this winter, I was exploring an abandoned theater in Newark. After wandering down a long dilapidated hallway, I saw a man watching me from behind a pole to the left of the theater’s stage. His body was obstructed by the pole, but I could see his hands gripping it tightly, as he leaned his head around to watch what I was doing. When I introduced myself, he extended his his hand for me to shake, but it was covered in a thick black dust so I held mine back. He apologized, and explained that he had spent the past three months living in a small room in this abandoned building; burning trash to keep warm. The black dust on his hands was the result of him tending to the fire. After our initial encounter he put a baseball bat down that I didn’t realize he had been holding. He said that he was worried that he would have had to use it because he’d previously been robbed. He told me that he was a recent immigrant from Mexico, and he regretted coming. He had come to work, but here there was none. Due to an increase in immigration this year, the usual construction and day labor jobs that don’t require government identification are completely saturated. Just a few days prior, I had finished reading “Grapes of Wrath” by John Steinbeck, and I was struck by the similarity of this mans journey, to that of the westward migrants in Steinbecks tale.
I recently met Steph in a park and asked to make a portrait of her. After talking a while, she revealed that she is a prostitute, and uses Craigslist to find clients. She had many horror stories of mentally ill men and all of their strange requests and perverse sexual kinks. I told her that her honesty surprised me, and she figured it was from years of forced self reflection. When she was younger she spent two years in a government mental asylum because as a young girl she had run a popular fan blog for the Columbine school shooters.
She reminded me of Jim, who I met a few months ago. I was biking the old train tracks underneath an overpass in Jersey City. He saw me from afar and rode his bike right up to me, studying me curiously. We spoke briefly just to feel each other out. I told him that I was out wandering looking for pictures, and he told me that he lived here under the bridge. I began to ask more questions and he suggested that we get off of our bikes and sit around a makeshift table that sat about twenty yards away. The sharp mid day autumn light split the table in two. He chose the side that the sun was hitting and suggested that I avoid the cloth chair opposite to his because it could have bed bugs on it. As we talked further he pulled out a crack pipe and began to smoke. After a few hits, his demeanor changed and he grew increasingly anxious. He told me that he had just completed his fourth month of being homeless. Which started the week after his teenage daughter died. She overdosed, and was his only child. I noticed the Marines patch on his sweatshirt and asked him if he was a veteran. He confirmed, and said that he had seen combat action in Iraq and Afghanistan, but he had been dishonorably discharged. He said, “when I was stationed in the Middle East my wife was battling stage four cancer. She was due to have a risky brain surgery to remove a tumor and I
Earlier this winter, I was exploring an abandoned theater in Newark. After wandering down a long dilapidated hallway, I saw a man watching me from behind a pole to the left of the theater’s stage. His body was obstructed by the pole, but I could see his hands gripping it tightly, as he leaned his head around to watch what I was doing. When I introduced myself, he extended his his hand for me to shake, but it was covered in a thick black dust so I held mine back. He apologized, and explained that he had spent the past three months living in a small room in this abandoned building; burning trash to keep warm. The black dust on his hands was the result of him tending to the fire. After our initial encounter he put a baseball bat down that I didn’t realize he had been holding. He said that he was worried that he would have had to use it because he’d previously been robbed. He told me that he was a recent immigrant from Mexico, and he regretted coming. He had come to work, but here there was none. Due to an increase in immigration this year, the usual construction and day labor jobs that don’t require government identification are completely saturated. Just a few days prior, I had finished reading “Grapes of Wrath” by John Steinbeck, and I was struck by the similarity of this mans journey, to that of the westward migrants in Steinbecks tale.
I recently met Steph in a park and asked to make a portrait of her. After talking a while, she revealed that she is a prostitute, and uses Craigslist to find clients. She had many horror stories of mentally ill men and all of their strange requests and perverse sexual kinks. I told her that her honesty surprised me, and she figured it was from years of forced self reflection. When she was younger she spent two years in a government mental asylum because as a young girl she had run a popular fan blog for the Columbine school shooters.
She reminded me of Jim, who I met a few months ago. I was biking the old train tracks underneath an overpass in Jersey City. He saw me from afar and rode his bike right up to me, studying me curiously. We spoke briefly just to feel each other out. I told him that I was out wandering looking for pictures, and he told me that he lived here under the bridge. I began to ask more questions and he suggested that we get off of our bikes and sit around a makeshift table that sat about twenty yards away. The sharp mid day autumn light split the table in two. He chose the side that the sun was hitting and suggested that I avoid the cloth chair opposite to his because it could have bed bugs on it. As we talked further he pulled out a crack pipe and began to smoke. After a few hits, his demeanor changed and he grew increasingly anxious. He told me that he had just completed his fourth month of being homeless. Which started the week after his teenage daughter died. She overdosed, and was his only child. I noticed the Marines patch on his sweatshirt and asked him if he was a veteran. He confirmed, and said that he had seen combat action in Iraq and Afghanistan, but he had been dishonorably discharged. He said, “when I was stationed in the Middle East my wife was battling stage four cancer. She was due to have a risky brain surgery to remove a tumor and I